down time

   Well, my cold is finally getting restless and moving on... I think.  Although I was up coughing till after 2 last night, which wasn't so fun. Despite that, I'm feeling alot better...  
     I feel a bit like I've over-extended myself in a big way, and now all that I drew towards me is chaotically spinning away.  The last month and a half have been crazy... busy much beyond what is healthy or wise. But even through times like that, I know God is there with me. Hind sight is always 20-2o and now as things slow down, it's clear that it is I who drew the distance between us; not my King. I'm starting to believe that the moment our lives are busy enough to distract us from living God's purpose, it's too busy. Part of the trouble though I think, is that we think we deserve to try and cram our days with as much 'pleasure' activities as we are able. Self focused thinking can end up being the reason our lives are so busy. 
 
     'do you know about true regret? to know you lived your life for self'
 
 ...part of a song from Jonah 33. I need to start training myself to think eternally. 'Will *this* matter in the long run?' I know Jesus lived His life completely for God's purpose, shouldn't I do exactly likewise? 
      
   I don't know where God is taking me from here. I don't even fully understand which parts of *here* are important to invest in. But I think I know the only answer that I  need right now... Prayer. I appreciated David's talk on prayer at the Aberdeen Service, it was.... timely. Ever noticed how sometimes when God wants to tell you something, He wispers it through every corner? Prayer has been springing up everywhere... at church, in conversations with friends, and the stark, blatent lack of it in my life that I've been noticing.
   I feel distant from God... what's more, I know it's going to be hard work to draw close again. The cool thing is though, I know God will help me with that too. There is nothing we need attempt alone, for Almighty God is waiting, ready to prove His overcoming strength in all our struggles.
 
    Prayer is where it's at. ;o)  ...and mediation on God's word is where it should end up. Methinks.
 
     Well... I should get on with my english. I'm *THIS* close to being done it... *pokes himself* 'So finish it already!!!'
*wanders off to another window*
 
   Thanks for putting up with my somewhat lengthy thoughts. :o)  Hope everyone is doing well!
God bless!
 
 
(my paintball gun still has not arrived. I think perhaps my patience is maturing... slightly. Or maybe it's actually a growing tumor of resignation...)